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It is January 17, 2022. I never thought I would be writing this date and you wouldn’t be sitting here next to me. Looking at the blog now I realize we have moved on from Mommy to Mom. You both have grown up so much, Tanner is taller than me now. I guess I shouldContinue reading “January 2022”

Hi guys, It’s been a few days since I have written, I have been doing a lot of reading and research on what is happening. Understanding it and educating yourself will really help you a lot when you get older and are working out what happened to you. I am so sad I am missingContinue reading “You are loved …. by so many …”

https://www.rachelwatsonbooks.com/blog1/the-destructive-counter-parenting-of-a-cruel-narcissistic-ex Ironically this post was written on November 10, 2019. 3 days after you were taken from me by your narcissist Dad. This sums up what is happening to the T, it’s so textbook.

Hi loves. It’s been a few days since I came back to the blog. I have been texting you guys with messages each day though. I still get the TMS alerts from school that your Dad is not using the app, but I guess he’s turning in the paper forms. I don’t say anything becauseContinue reading “Trauma Bonding”

I am tired. It’s been an exhausting day. Not having to deal with your Dad for a few months has really shown me how tired and unhealthy it was to deal with him. Waking up today to his emails to the school and his total gaslighting and abusive demeanor just made me sad and angryContinue reading “Good night my loves …”

Today is another lesson in vocabulary. After living in a psychologically abusive relationship for 17 years one term I never knew existed but sums up our lives totally ….. we have all been gaslighted our entire lives with your Dad. The definition of gaslighting is: manipulate (someone) by psychological means into doubting their own sanity.Continue reading “Gaslighting”

According to Wikipedia, abuse is the improper usage or treatment of a thing, often to unfairly or improperly gain benefit. Abuse can occur in many forms. What most people think of when they think of abuse is the physical aspect of it. Think of bullying at school, you usually think of bullies beating up theContinue reading “Abuse”

Dear Natalie, It’s your birthday night baby girl.  Remember how we always celebrate your last meal as a whatever age you were that year.  It was always something Mommy made for you guys.  I wanted you to be so excited about your birthday the next day.  All of the little things like the tooth fairyContinue reading “Happy 10th Birthday Baby Girl”

It’s been 24 days … I see you Natalie, I hear you when you see my at school and ask me to come to my house. I see you are scared, I see your Dad is trying to turn you against me because he knows you are the last thing I love and care aboutContinue reading “24 days …”

This is what I wrote to your Dad today Natalie … it has been 21 days since Mommy has been able to hold you, kiss you, sleep hand in hand with you, read to you, cook for you, snuggle you …. everything with you. I love you Meepy, I don’t know why your Dad isContinue reading “21 days …”